||[Apr. 15th, 2010|11:16 pm]
i miss you.
i miss staying up till 4am on the phone in the summer.
i miss your laugh.
i miss the way you used to say "babe".
i miss your innonence.
i miss your random text messages.
i miss the way you would always shrug things off.
i miss you being my bestfriend.
i miss how you used to care about everyone and anything.
i miss watching you skate board.
i miss the fact that i can't even look you in the eyes anymore.
i hate how you changed.
i hate all the things you put me threw.
i hate how the drugs changed you.
i hate how you let everything get the best of you.
i hate how we cant even have a decent conversation.
i hate how you get so angry about everything.
i hate that you don't care anymore.
i hate how everybody was right, but i stayed and pushed threw.
i hate how you pused me away.
I tend to think about everything in the past and it makes me sad, how could some loose so much control of theirselves?
I dont know what happened to you, i wish i did. I wish there was some way i could help you, but being the person you are you dont accept anything from anyone and i guess that's okay, you'll learn the hard way and i wish you the best of luck.
ill always be here no matter what.